Nov 28 Ranting/Losing it!!

This is a rant that happened one night when I thought I was losing it. I go off on a tangent and bring up a whole bunch of topics. Some aren't even related to Ricky, but he's the reason I kinda went nuts. I was going crazy missing him and wishing he would TALK to me. He was the whole time. I just had to listen 'hearter'.

He loved me too. They all did. I told them all to buzz off though so I could run off to join the NHL before i jumped off the Calgary Tower. HA! I broke every bone in my body, but i survived the Fall. Then the Twin Towers fell and i lost my footing. I got to ride in a cool black '69 Kimaro with fake seatbelts though. And my first apartment had 2 floors and grass for carpet. plastic melts in oil. you came when i wasn't home and took something that belonged to me. you just missed the telephone operator across the hall. who WAS that guy with the cocaine nose job and the bible in his hand anyway?? no matter, i forgave you because your heart was beaten to a pulp. then i cooked you sacred hollowpoint food. Hair so black and soft on the pink couch in New York. you called it a theeAter. sooooo key-Ute! you have Pins in your Head that make you dance. i do too. you were so shy. i so wasn't. i always loved your jeans and what was underneath your jacket. i know how to hunt for oil. you met my dad at the pizza joint then i took off in someone else's corvette. you paid me back at tags and that was my Out. stupid screwed up kids! I was a fucking Spider Queen. No one could de-throne me. I tended bar for Ninja's! i got tips from Greek Gods. Minneapolis had great cookies, shrimp and hoops. too much booze! Then I joined planned parenthood on Granville Island and ordered 3 boyz while we listened to Bob Marley in the Rain. the safari at the delta was fun but it took me away from you. you were my biggest temptation and i was yours. Turbo Lover, tell me there's no other on your desert plane. eat that popcorn plain! lol! But you saved me with a wave. he did with a word. his spelling is impeccable, but he isn't you. he doesn't know me like you do. Northern lights so beautiful they made me cry. holy god what did that plant at the end of the hall ever do to you?!?? HAHA! i can't believe we broke a whole truckload of beer bottles! why didn't we drink them?? why didn't we make out on the hood of that Basic truck and howl at the moon? .....oh that's right, we did.